Dear Haden,
For you to accuse me of not taking care of mom the way she should’ve been taken care of is a complete slap in the face. I was there from the day she got diagnosed forward. I was at every chemotherapy session, radiation, surgery, and doctors’ visit. I held her hair back when chemo made her too sick, and begged her to eat when she was too sick to even look at food. I laid with her when she was too weak to walk, and hugged her when she cried. I was there every second. While I do not have a doctorate of medicine or a BSN, I took care of her the best damn way I knew how. Where were you? Oh right, in Oregon. In denial about the whole thing. I tried to tell you how bad it was and you would not come home to help take care of mom. Don’t pretend that money was the reason you couldn’t be here. You could have very easily found a way to be here. I never once made you feel guilty about not coming home because we both know mom told you to stay in Oregon. But don’t mistake your guilt for not being here and losing out on that precious time with mom for hate towards me for having an amazing relationship with her and doing what was right. I stand behind what Don and I did for mom 100% because we did everything we could for her. In mom’s words, we were the “three musketeers”. I hate it and hurt for you that you won’t ever have the memories with mom that I do, because I know I am so incredibly thankful to of had the relationship I did with mom, but you only have yourself to blame for not coming home when you should have. I’ll always be here for you regardless of how you feel and will always be supportive of the decisions you make. I will always be your sister.
“There’s a Chip on your shoulder girl and by God it’ll make you fall if you let it take a part of your soul. Sister, Don’t test the ones you love. Sister don’t let go, sister don’t let go of us. Don’t test the ones you love, it’ll only tear us down. If you want to feel alive then learn to love your ground.” -Mumford & Sons
Love you.
